This perfect Saturday afternoon

I had a wee helper in the kitchen. I just love Saturday mornings and today I decided to make a pancake (1 egg, 1 egg white, 1/2 cup oats, 1/4 tsp salt, 1/2 tsp baking powder, 1 tbsp raw cacao powder, some cinnamon, 1 tbsp maple syrup). Then I made some peanut butter fudges for freezer, for when that craving strikes - and I want to have something sweet RIGHT NAO. It's super easy and a much healthier option for milk chocolate or candy... Or so I tell myself ;) No really, I did a little bit of research online about the "healthiness" of maple syrup and turns out it's a bit more healthy than honey but nevertheless it's a sugar so I shouldn't go overboard with it either. But I think it's better than candy filled with yucky substances... And milk chocolate found on stores. At least when I make my foods and treats from scratch, I'll know what's in them. And there's nothing extra. 

In fact I had such a big craving for candy last night I made these peanut butter fudges and it fulfills that craving for sugary snack perfectly. I've become more and more interested in listening to my body's signals and really only eating when I am hungry (and in need of something specific) or if it's a treat... Well, eating mindfully. In the past I could be hungry and eat a bunch of milk chocolate without a second thought.

But I'm becoming more aware of how certain foods affect me and since dropping processed foods and extra sugary goodnesses, I am feeling much better. 

This weekend I am mainly looking forward to seeing an old friend at her birthday party, cat cuddles, reading fiction, watching shows and doing some work I guess. I am enjoying having this appartment all to myself for a few days and feeling awesome. I do better living with a flatmate but I do enjoy time alone, too.

I hope anyone reading this is having a chilled out, enjoyable weekend themselves.

X

Pills

PS. Recipe for freezer fudge here.

I should probably start this off by introducing myself

Hi,

I am 25, currently I dwell in Lapland of all the god-forsaken lands in the world (don't ask how I got here, I wouldn't tell anyway). After Upper Secondary I didn't really know what I wanted to do with my life & study, so I picked sociology - ah, the Social Science for all those who still don't want to make decisions about what it is they want to do with their lives and keep on not deciding on that for another 5 years. All in all it worked out great until I realised the job opportunities with this particular degree are how shall we say .... Shit. Now I've applied to a Master's Program in Scotland and I got a conditional yes. It is still pending, though. Oh, and it is for Social Work. I figured it is a good choice. It shall remain to be seen.

I am really unfocused. Like, really. It is unbelievable if I can keep this blog going after the first post, in fact. I wouldn't know what I wanted to blog about. I mean, or, like everything. I want to blog about everything. Anything that inspires me. Anything that I'm obsessed with (because I usually am, quite obsessed with something). And other times, well... I don't know how to articulate what I want to say and what goes on in my brain or how to commit to one single thing in this life thing. But this is an attempt to do just that. This blog. It is an unapologetic blog about my life and thoughts (and sometimes recalls of experiences). Sometimes I just need a place to vent. Sometimes I write stories. Sometimes I take pictures. Or post recipes. Or use it as an outlet for other creative things.

Back to the unfocused bit. There is a beautiful organisation in the chaos. I am sure of it. I will find it one day. I am sure. In the meantime, if my life and I are indeed, a mess... I figure at least I could be a hot mess. So I decided it was the time to make a drastic change in my life and start exercising and eating healthily. It was about time, I thought. (I'm never gonna be this young again and I can't waste away this opportunity to look hot, cough). Seriously. Main reason is, I want to be healthy. I want to be able to climb mountains and do things that fit people can do and I want to feel good in my body. So somewhat paradoxically I went to Les Mills Interval Body Step class, and that is that. I tell you this much. If you want to experience near death experience, try the class. After the first 10 minutes and the first set of burpees I was thinking to myself I will never make it alive, but I sure as hell wouldn't leave the class before it ended. I mean, look around you. All these people here, they are doing it, and you cannot? That gave me enough will power to stick till the end of the class. And now I have made a pact with my butt to keep going back. It is gonna hurt but I am also trying to make my butt look like a different butt.

So I guess that is my obsession right now. Hardest part is keeping at it.